I'm told suyeon thinks she's fat and notpretty and is depressed. The notpretty part isn't true though! She has the potential to be cuteeeeeeee. She has a cute little nose and normal-sized eyes and a tiny mouth! And she isn't fat, just kind of chubby. Though I guess I kind of can't really empathise since I believe you don't have the right to whine if you can do something about it but aren't. And that is why I told her her, yes you are, but why complain if you aren't going to work your butt off to fix it?
Which is why you do not often find me distressing (out loud) about my blackgirl's ass and my tiny chink eyes. I don't deserve a toned tush because I don't make an effort to work out and I don't like plastic surgery so I'm going to remain tiny chink-eyed forever.
Though I was a little apprehensive telling her cos it might crush what's left of her spirit and lead her to consider desperate courses of action (anorexia! bulemia! suicide!). BUT IT DIDN'T heh heh heh I am truly wise!
Let us hope no one ever does the same to me (ie lie to me just so I won't kill myself) I assure you the depression will fade into self-acceptance! Which is totally more healthy than thinking you are the shiznit.

The funrun was today! At the hcm zoo. I was supposed to meet at school at 530am but ended up sleeping till eight (despite my three alarm clocks and the eight missed calls I received from various friendz).
Da eun and suyeon came over afterwards to watch 1408. I told them to buy popcorn, forgetting that I DON'T HAVE A MICROWAVE O_o doy!
I'd say 1408 is one of the better horror flicks I've seen recently. No typical longhaired overly flexible japanese ghosts or crazy killer and stupid kids a la friday the 13th/nightmare on elm street. And no stupid twist that doesn't feel like a twist! (like the one in hide and seek. Nowadays most scary movies try to get a the sixth sense kind of shocker at the end, but they NEVER SUCCEED! Even shyalaman's later movies never really captured the essence of the sixth sense's denouement. like wtv dood)
Oh and john cusack must've been hella cute when he was young hahaha.
I let suyeon play some gta after that. Then I told her to think twice if she ever felt like going on a murderous rampage for real; let us just say she wasn't the best at causing maximum c4rn4g3 ><

I don't think I could ever have a serious relationship with a white boy :( They expect sex and that is the one thing I shan't give! The problem is azn boys are mostly alot less attractive :(
Haha I have started to adapt to my enviroment by gaining a white sense of humour! Like this one time christian fooled yingyue into thinking she slept with arief and later on had a threeway with felix and I. She actually believed us, so straight was my face! And so matter-of-fact my tone. Heh heh.
Like lots of the angmoh girls here kid so innapropriately sometimes haha. Well, inappropriate as compared to my singapore friends I guess. Before I'd just be like wth o_O but now I'm all yeah *keeps joke running*!

I am changing! As a person. Or maybe it's just that my singapore layers are being slowly but surely peeled away revealing the whitish bone beneath. Should I be resisting or hastening the process?
And you know how I use to say I'd gotten meaner since coming here? Well I'm starting to think I've always been this mean/shallow under everything :( Like I've probably always been this notnice on the inside. Just it's all wrapped up in sunshine and sprinkles and unicorns so y'all don't see. Probably the only things I have going for me are my morals & ethics and the fact that I'm actually trying to be a better person.
Or no wait I've got it by jove! All my badness stems from my grade A quality pride! I have too much. See, too much pride leads to devaluing people based on shallow reasons, which leads to my being mean! So the answer to my plight would be to get rid of some of my pride. But how to do so?
It would be good if I literally pass some on to chrisyang. Then he would care more about things he (probably) should(n't).